• Heidi J. Smith

The Day I Lost My Son

Updated: Apr 25, 2020

Photo credit to Bruce Warrington from Unsplash

Slamming the screen doors, my kids shouted, "Mom, we can't find Judd! He was playing by the banana trees, but now he is gone."

I stopped seasoning the chicken and glanced at the clock.

Where could he be? I just saw him a few minutes ago. The visiting eye doctor team would be back soon, and I needed to finish preparing supper.

"Run next door and see if he is there," I hollered back while the electricity flickered.

Panic gripped my heart as I slipped my sandals on.

We searched by the mango trees, our neighbors' huts, and at the corner candy shop.

But we couldn't find him.

After what seemed like an eternity, we found Judd sliding (on the only slide in town) at the nearby school.

My four-year-old looked up into my tear-stained face and said, “Mommy, I didn’t ask you because you would have said no."

Relief and disbelief washed over me as I thought, Of course, I would have said no to playing alone at the school! You are too little, and I'm trying to protect you. But if you would have asked me to go with you, I would have said yes.

How often do we do the same thing in our lives? We act independently rather than seek God's guidance.

We doubt that God has our best interests at heart, and we believe our way is better than God's way. We disobey even though God's Word provides clear instruction for our protection and good.

"In fact, this is love for God: to keep his commands. And his commands are not burdensome." I John 5:3 NIV

Obedience believes God's way is the best even if we don't understand. It displays our faith and love for God.

The song "Obedience" states it perfectly.

"Obedience is the very best way, To show that you believe. Doing exactly what the Lord commands, Doing it happily. Action is the key – do it immediately, Joy you will receive."

Judd thought that asking for permission would have stifle his fun, but rather it would have supported his fun. What areas in our lives do we need to adjust?

In our lives, obedience stems from our love for the Lord and shows our trust in Him.

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