Chapter 2. Small Faith, Big God
Jeff and I settled into a tiny two-bedroom bungalow with our one rusty car.
We started to save our money for a new car, but the car soon died. I wanted to get a loan, but Jeff refused.
He reassured me, "God promises to meet all of our needs, and this is a real need."
"But it doesn't work that way," I protested. "We need a car now."
Jeff disagreed, "God will provide in His perfect timing."
We argued, prayed, and waited.
I doubted, while Jeff trusted. For a few weeks, we borrowed vehicles and wondered if we were doing the right thing.
One Sunday after church, I buried my head in my pillow and sobbed.
Lord, I want to believe, but I don't. Why aren't you answering my prayer? Please provide a car and help my lack of faith.
"And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.”
Matthew 21:22 ESV
"But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord." James 1:6-7 NIV
The following day I opened the mailbox and received a letter.
My heart pounded while a check fell into my trembling hands. The check was enough for us to purchase a car with cash. Gratitude flooded my soul, while tears spilled down my cheeks.
Why had I doubted? Didn't I believe God could provide? OR Was my problem too big for Him?
Why was waiting so hard? Was it because I had no control and I had to trust that God's answer was the best (even if it was No)?
What in our lives seem too hard for God? What prayer request is still unanswered?
I would like to say that my faith has increased, but I still struggle. I maximize my problems and minimize God. I forget His faithfulness and fight for control.
Our faith increases as we gain a proper perspective of God and trust in His plan.
He is the Potter, and we are the clay. He molds us into what He knows is best for us (even if we don't understand or like the outcome).
When we pray in faith, we believe God will answer in His timing and in His way. That might mean yes, no, or wait. But whatever the answer, we know nothing is impossible for Him.
We need to encourage each other with answers to prayers and remind ourselves of God's faithfulness. What faith stories can you share?