Heidi J. Smith
Photo credit to
Matt & Nicole Peterson
Hello! Welcome to ROOTED and REJOICING. Thank you for stopping by my blog. I am wife to Jeff, mom to Emma, Lily, Abe, and Judd, and Iowa friend to many.
Sharing God’s Word with ladies is my passion, but a series of events quenched my desire for a while. I felt lost. Let me start at the beginning.
Growing up in a Christian family, I was the oldest of four children. I was the bossy, always doing-the-right thing kid. My siblings and others teased me and called me goody two shoes and teacher’s pet. The comments stung, but I shrugged them off and immersed myself in God’s Word.
At age twelve, I dedicated my life to the Lord at our church camp and dreamed of telling people about Jesus. Since my missionary parents lived in South America when I was young, I imagined returning there.
I pursued my goal by attended Bible College and fell in love with a stocky, dark haired man. His contagious laugh filled the room while he told everyone about Jesus. After a few years of dating, we married, started ministry, and began a family.
Blessings filled our lives.
After a decade of serving in youth ministry, our family relocated to Zambia to serve the Lord full-time. We adjusted to the simple, friendly life in Africa.
Happiness marked our lives for many years, but an exposed secret shattered my world and moved us back to the United States. As I tried to “catch my breath,” an avalanche of trials buried me and shook my faith. Depression consumed me.
I questioned elementary believes, wrestled with God’s love for me, and lost sight of my purpose. The Lord stripped pride out of my life and desired complete dependence in every area. As I struggled with my faith, a Christian counselor advised me while God’s Word challenged and comforted me.
“My soul is bereft of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is; so I say, “My endurance has perished; so has my hope from the Lord.
But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope; The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:17-18; 21-23 ESV
My doubts bred despair, but my renewed trust ushered in hope. God loves me and carried me through the darkest days of my life. The stormy problems pushed my roots deeper into God’s promises.
My life is messy and I still struggle, but through it all, God is faithful. As I journal and journey through life, I pray that you too find hope in His message.